For real this time!!

Why is this so hard??? Why cant I just start this and stick to it??? I'm so sick of being "fat", and not feeling comfortable in my own skin. I truly want a change, and I'm going to make it happen!!! So I've been doing some research and really like the idea of Semi Low Carb, I mean come'on I LOVE bread, cereal, granola, milk. So I am going to do this plan:

Daily
- Fruits (low carb)
- Green Veggies
- Leafy Greens
- Poultry
- Green Tea

3 times a week
- Oily Fish
- Cottage Cheese
- Avocado

Once a week
- Whole Grains
- Dessert (low carb)
- Red meat
- Sweet Potato

NEVER!
- Fast Food
- Soda
- Processed meals/frozen dinners
- Canned soup
- “Diet” anything
PLUS: Eat breakfast every day, no exceptions.

I am really going to make an effort, give myself 50 days May 8Th. I will check my progress then and see if I need to twik anything.

Also a lill motivation for myself, this is what I want to look like at the end of this!

It's my birthday and I can cry if I want to!!

I'm 30!!!! Man i'm old....

Julia Childs....

So needles to say I haven't started any of my attempts to lose weight, no diet, and no Wii. My mom told me not to buy the Wii but I did anyway thinking yeah right I'm going to be on that thing everyday. Anyway, Ive been watching Julia & Julia, i really admire that women. She was a big girl, tall, and not to attractive. She didn't care what anyone thought about her. She was courageous, passionate, and optimistic. I think i want to go to cooking school, i love to cook and eat....

Wii Wii Wii all thw way home

Ok so I bought a Wii about two weeks ago, but just bought the Wii Fitness this past Sunday. I am so excited about it, I hope this helps in my battle. I set my Mii up today and it states I have a BMI of 43, oooch!! I am OBESE; I want to bring it down to 25. I’ve decided I am not going to have a goal weight, more like a goal BMI. Now tomorrow morning I “plan” to get up early and work out, I also plan on making a good breakfast and lunch for my son…. The thing is in the morning I’m going to want to sleep an extra 5 mins and that turns into 30-45 min extra. I’m crazy…
You should hear me with the kids, I’m telling them all day about what to eat what not to eat… shaking my head!! I eat any and everything, but I went to the grocery store and bought all fruit, veggies, meat, grains, dairy. I really tried to stay out of the aisles. So this is what I look like now:

Ok so maybe

I started this blog today and have done nothing in the form of "dieting". Funny, ha?? Well that's my story.... since the birth of my daughter in 2008 I've been trying to motivate myself into eating healthy and losing the weight. Whats funny is I was 70 pounds lighter after her birth then I am today. You ask how that could be?? Well for one I was unemployed so instead of returning to work I sat on my butt and breastfeed which in turn left me to eat and watch TV. And I didn't get out much, I was depressed and just lazy. I want to start tomorrow, but its Sunday and I have a crazy day filled with the kids, blah blah blah...

Oohh by the way, I am 5'9 and weight 291.8 pounds